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"Say It"Written By: Ryouga Disclaimer: I do not own the Gundam boys or any other character from the series. I do not own the song (I Need You To) Say It It belongs to Enrique Iglesias and as such all rights remain his. Warnings: lemon, sap,angst, song fic Pairings: 3x4 Rating: NC 17 Authors note: //Indicates song lyrics// Summary: Quatre cannot sense Trowa's inner feelings anymore and knows there is something seriously wrong. " Say It "
//Don't tell me, “Trowa?” I ask as you slowly walk past me. “You've been restless lately. Are you alright?” You smile softly as if to say 'nothings wrong', yet I can read it in your eyes, feel it burning within me, the confusion that clouds your heart, mind and soul. There's a distant nagging in my heart and for some reason I can't read you. I can't feel the Trowa I know within. //Just take me We're both trembling, but out of fear or nervousness, I have no idea as you gently push me back onto the bed; our bed; the bed we have shared for the past five years. Your kiss is the same as it has always been; firm, yet passionate as you push back my robes revealing my nakedness and my heart wrenches as I realize that this may be the last night we spend together like this and I find myself wanting you to make love to me more than ever. //Yes, I know I wasn't perfect when we fought and
cried all those nights, How I wish I could change the past, take back the things I had said and done without thinking during our arguments and disagreements. I was always the one with the sharp tongue and cruel words. 'The master of cutting words' you had called me; and you were right. I was back then. //So I need you to say it Your lips ghost their way down across my chest causing my body to shudder with approval and my own mind clouds with confusion. If you really want to to let go of this, of us, of me, then why are you loving me the same way you always have? I look into your eyes as you shift into position above me and there's turmoil deep within, like you're trying to suppress what you really feel. "Trowa, is it over?" //Yes, I need you to say it I feel the conflict within your heart build and your body stiffens as you refrain from answering my question, your eyes moving from the line of contact I had established. Trowa, I need you to say it, to tell me that we're through. Your heart is racing, but there's so much tension between us that it's making me think too much. //Don't tell me "If there's someone else, Trowa, I'm not going to let you go without a fight!" But, if that is the case and you have moved on to someone else who can love you in the same way that I do, then perhaps it's best that I don't know. //Just take me I pull your body down towards mine, feeling you pull back in protest then you finally give in and my lips caress yours. Ignorance is meant to be bliss. But bliss, even as you take me and our bodies become one, seems so far out of reach. I don't understand, we were there, we met at the crossroads and pushed forward past the difficult times, we've come so far together, grown so much with each other and I'm not about to let it all fly out the of the window. //Yes I know I wasn't perfect when I ran and lied
all those times I know I lied to you so many times after we first met; lied about my feelings, lied about how much I loved you. You shared everything with me, all of your feelings, hid nothing from me, but I was so afraid of what I felt that I ran and hid my feelings from you until I realized that without you I was only half the man I should be. And although bliss may seem far away, the passion burns and your touch is magic as you play me like a finely tuned instrument and I can feel it's strength in and around you... ...and in us. //So I need you to say it God how I wish you would just say it and end this torment of mixed pleasure and pain that's coursing through my veins as your body slams passionately against mine time and time again. How can I believe it's over when you're making love to me like this? Bringing me to the throes of sexual fulfillment as our bodies shudder together and our cries of completion echo until you collapse onto me holding me tight. //Yes I need you to say it I can't stand the pain that rips through my heart at not knowing what's going through your mind and I grip your shoulders pushing you away enough to see the tears in your eyes as you look me in the eyes. "Please, Trowa just end it if you're going to. I can't take this silent treatment any more." //All those times we fought "For everything I ever said and did that hurt you, for everything I did that made you cry, that tore you up inside; I'm sorry. Please, don't leave me,Trowa. I love you!" You laugh softly and kiss me gently as if to relieve my fears, and as the tears escape down over my cheeks you reach behind me pulling something out from under the pillow. I watch, stunned as you place a ring on my finger and then one on your own and it's all so clear to me now, the confusion, the restlessness... You never intended to leave, only to love... Forever. OWARI |
